10.11.12 a date i will always remember..

Well such a beautiful date right, 10.11.12, but not so beautiful for me.. Everything ends today. 10 it's the date again..happy first time happy on the 10th and most hateful stuff happen on the 10th too, well just nice that it on the *time* 4.10pm too, everything end's with an 10 in it.. Well the choice is made, what can i do, move on right, but what's am i doing, i'm like some 3yrs old kid who believe in santa who keep believing and hoping that things will change and happy stuff will happen, i know it's the dumbest choice, but i don't know why one part of the brain ask me to move on, another part of it ask me to wait as it's worth it and just keep believing and hoping and it will happen.. i'm confuse by myself too, either this or that.. but i know i've made a choice i will always stick to it.. a promise is a promise, a vow is a vow whereby i'll always stick to it :)